Are these hands made of human bone and do these words still have the heart to sting, am I the butterfly or simply the bee a slave to the weeds, or a monarch in the process of change
through the old swings where he found me, listening to
dolly parton and holding the coffee in my stomach. past
the house of a boy who lives near a movie theater. I might see
both the boy and the movie tonight. past the tennis club,
site of tennis lessons and a party that taught me how to pretend
to be old. past the old courtyard, where I organized
a misguided fight club, where I learned to jump rope,
where I fantasized, alone and screaming with a loneliness
I knew was temporary, and hated for that fact. I think
if I knew I would be lonely forever I would learn to be joyful.
and here we are, Jack and I, neither of us happy,
both of us in a good mood. he has recently returned
from Hawaii. I have been to Central Park fifteen
times since summer started. and so we are both new.
Jack and I are not in love but the woman
who hands me my bagel thinks we are. this might be
because we are talking about love, loudly,
talking all down Austin Street, Metropolitan Avenue,
Manse Street, Juno Street, Kessel Street,
Love Love Love we are both in Love
and Sad and filling the air with it.
how I finally watched all of Star Wars with my boyfriend
how he ate dinner with his girlfriend’s mother
how my ex is still fucking me up
how his girlfriend is still fucking him up
how he’s quitting theater
how i’m quitting being abstract about things
Jack and I are childhood friends and adult friends
and we used to meet here and play tag
but now we just meet here and talk about love.
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Jack And I, Walking Through The Neighborhood, Talking About Love (via blank-grace)
I hear pain should be specific to be relatable: what was the color of the sweater you wore or the smell of the food in the oven or the TV show playing in the background on the day your world broke in half?
I could tell you all of those things but why try to make you feel as if you’d been there when all I wish is that I hadn’t been?